again i go unnoticed

Please tell me you're
Just feeling tired
'cause if it's more than
That I feel that I might break
Out of touch, out of time.
Please send me anything
But signals that are mixed
Cause I can't read
Your rolling eyes
Out of touch,
Are we out of time?

Close lipped
Another goodnight kiss
Is robbed of all it's passion,
Your grip
Another time, is slack
It leaves me feeling empty.

I'll wait until tomorrow
Maybe you'll feel better then
Maybe we'll be better then
So what's another day
When I can't bear
These nights of thoughts
Of going on without you
This mood of yours is temporary
It seems worth the wait
To see your smile again
Out of the corner of your eye
Won't be the only way
You'll look at me then

** Dashboard Confessional

Losing Focus

my mind is confused with the pouring rain
no one to turn to with my deepest thoughts
i find myself continuing to sort through
the very meaning of my lost life
days go by when I lose all focus
of this life I’ve been trying to live
instead I find myself empty
wondering if I can pull myself out again
fear takes hold; I may not be in control
my mind tells me to run, just get away
leaving everything in the past behind me

:)

below are a bunch of poems... gotta love creative writing... yay... and some from awhile ago... just found them in my folder...

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i used to keep emotions in check
now i'm finding it hard to concentrate
as you're on my mind most the day
i think about the times i've hurt you
and other pains you have felt
i wish i could erase it all away
remembering your smile and laugh
could we ever be more than friends
that's all i need to find
but events lately make it hard
i may never really know
doubts remain that you're not ready
i don't want to jeopardize what we have
my greatest fear is that you may never know
i care about you so much
never intentionally hurting you
all i want is for you to be happy
allowing you to follow your heart

Spring and Autumn

Spring
A joyous time of year
My mind begins to clear
Of the depression that had taken hold
Winter is now gone
I won’t miss the cold
I won’t miss the dark dreariness
The enveloping shadow
Has begun to pass
I find myself free
Of the past I had clung to
With a new joy, a new passion
I begin on my journey again
Refreshed by the rebirth
That spring alone can bring.

Autumn
A dark time of year
My mind begins to lose focus
My heart begins to break
The pressure and strain
Begin to wear me down
My optimism seems lost
Lost in a sea of doubt and worry
It is amazing how a change in season
Can affect everything in your soul
With the approaching winter
I can feel the grip of depression taking hold
My spirit aches to hold on to the joy felt only weeks before.

Haiku's

Spring is upon us
Joy abounds in the warm air
Flowers blooming bold.

Summer upon us
Anticipating great fun
Campfire stories told.

Autumn upon us
Warmth coming to a sad end
Depression takes hold.

Winter upon us
Freezing the souls of many
Alone in the cold.

Limericks

I had given her all of my heart
But she went and had it torn apart
My love for her was true
Now I sit alone blue
My soul now as tart as a fart


Limericks are weird in their form
They make you feel giddy and warm
With much rhythm and rhyme
You don’t notice passed time
Until your mind is back to norm

Burdens

Have you ever wondered
What it would be like to throw out all
Previous inibitions and regret
And start a life anew with spirit unattached
Those thoughts and beliefs we felt in our Past
Would shatter to the floor like scattering glass
Reviving in us the joy of a start once again
Faith allowing us to try something new
Hope guiding our souls on a journey afresh
Traveling a path lighted by spirit in our hearts
Feeling a joy rising inside a passion not felt before
Letting your burdens fall never again seen
Attainable by deciding to walk a life renewed.

Pantoum

I know we have our qualms
We lack communication
I won’t let you go
I love you

We lack communication
I want to talk to you
I love you
This is not some fling

I want to talk to you
I want to know you
This is not some fling
It is not a waste

I want to know you
I know we have our qualms
It is not a waste
I won’t let you go

Conflicted Emotions

Constricted, i don’t like it
Suppressed, makes me weary
Helpless, no ones there to catch me
Lost, my path seems overgrown
Weak, my soul aches
Tired, i long for rest
Stressed, need a break
Negative, no joy in life
Confused, no where to turn
Welcome to hell on Earth

Million Pieces

**** Yes, now you can all stop bothering me about not posting :P
*** This is an awesome song by the Newsboys
** I'll get to see them in concert again this summer for the fourth time!!!! :)
* Here they are

They all fall
Like a million raindrops
Falling from a blue sky
Kissing your cares goodbye
They all fall
Like a million pieces
A tickertape parade high
And now you're free to fly

Carryin' a millstone malaise
It's been pulling down your gaze
You pound the pavement
It don't give or care
This weight ain't yours to bear

Why you holdin' grudges in old jars?
Why you wanna show off all your scars?
What's it gonna take to lay a few burdens down?
It's a beautiful sound

When they all fall
Like a million raindrops
Falling from a blue sky
Kissing your cares goodbye
They all fall
Like a million pieces
A ticker tape parade high
And now you're free to fly

When that muffled sigh
Says you're barely getting by
Cut your burdens loose and just simplify
Simplify

This is not your floor
You're going higher than before
Drop the weight now
Wait for the lookout guide
Look outside

As they all fall
Like a million raindrops
Falling from a blue sky
Kissing your cares goodbye
They all fall
Like a million pieces
A ticker tape parade high
Now you're free to fly

You've gotta lay that burden down
You're gonna lay that burden down
It's time to leave your burdens in a pyre
Set a bonfire

'Cause when you lay your burdens down
When you lay your burdens down
When you drop them burdens
What a free-fall
What a thrill
Bury them all
In a landfill

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** hey... now you can get off my back about not posting lately :) I figure one every 3 weeks is sufficient... This piece is not mine... it was written by a friend of mine... i like it...

Into the abyss, I walk in solitude
Fearful of the times to come and those times passed
Alive, yet dead in this world horribly crude
Why in your heart, did I have to be last?

I cherish the memories we almost had
Longing for the times when love had not seemed cruel
Broken am I, yet to see you, I am glad,
For hope, my will play the part of the fool.

I have discovered how unkind life can be
My time spent with you is kept in my heart
I shall forever be loyal, this I guarentee
The way we could love, it wouldn't be that hard

I want you to know, I will always be yours,
Our love still has hope, do not yet close the doors...