Live Out Loud

** hey... i get to be in a computer lab for half of my classes today... yay... and guess what i realized? i never put the lyrics for the song that gave me the inspiration for my title on the blog... so here they are, i have condensed them a bit...

~Live Out Loud: Steven Curtis Chapman~

Wake the neighbors, get the word out
Come on crank up the music climb a mountain and shout
This is life we've been given made to be lived out
So la la la la live out loud
Live out loud, yeah

Think about this try to keep a bird from singing
After it's soared up in the sky
Give the sun a cloudless day and tell it not to shine
Now think about this if we really have been given
The gift of a life that will never end
And if we have been filled with living hope we're gonna overflow
And if God's love is burning in our hearts we're gonna glow
There's just no way to keep it in

Everybody, come on
La la la la la la la
La la la live out loud
I want to hear everybody sing
La la la la la la la
La la la live out loud, loud, loud

Every corner of creation is a living declaration
Come join the song we were made to sing

I won't give up... ;)

** Song by Genesis... yes i know its an oldie, but oh well :)

Stay with me,
My love I hope you'll always be
Right here by my side if ever I needed you
Oh my love
In your arms,
I feel so safe and so secure
Everyday is such a perfect day to spend
Alone with you
I will follow you will you follow me
All the days and nights that we know will be
I will stay with you will you stay with me
With the dark,
I see so very clearly now
All my fears are drifting by me so slowly now
Fading away
I can say
The night is long but you are there
Close at hand I'm better for the smile you give
And while I live
I will follow you will you follow me
All the days and nights that we know will be
I will stay with you will you stay with me
I will follow you ...

*** i hope everyone had a great easter weekend, mine was great :P

storm

Water falling hard
Rain pattering on the roof
Lost souls washed afresh

hey everyone... sorry i haven't posted in awhile... and i would type more now, but i think i am going to try to take a nap... besides i probably don't have anything interesting for ya anyway :P

A New Day

Reach up for the sunrise
Put your hands into the big sky
You can touch the sunrise
Feel the new day enter your life

Reach up for the sunrise
Put your hands into the big sky
You can touch the sunrise
Feel the new day enter your life

Feel the new day enter your life
Feel the new day

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*** Song by Green Day

Why can't you just admit it, you've had it, you're
sick of me
You're fed up with all my bad habits, you're
sick of me
To your lies you've become so desensitized
sick of me
Lost regrets and you say that your mad at me
sick of me
Am I losing you?
Losin' faith and you still don't know what to do
sick of me
Losin' health and now you hate everything and you're
sick of me
It's a waste but we still keep on tryin' you're
sick of me
Am I losing you?
So you got your problems
Do you have a reason?

Am I losing you?

When I Think About Angels...

Hehe... i had this song in my head for the past two days... i heard it on my way to school on tuesday morning, someone told me the song was by sara evans, its not, its by jamie o'neil... but its a good song... maybe i'll get it stuck in all of your heads if you know the tune :)

'I swear I hear you in the whisper of the wind
I feel you when the sun is dancin' on my skin
And when it's raining
You won't find me complainin' cause

When I think about rain
I think about singing
When I think about singing
It's a heavenly tune
When I think about heaven then
I think about angels
When I think about angels
I think about you

The taste of sugar sure reminds me of your kiss
I like the way that they
Both linger on my lips
Kisses remind me of a field of butterflies
Must be the way the heart is fluttering inside
Beautiful distraction
You make every thought a chain reaction

When I think about rain
I think about singing
When I think about singing
It's a heavenly tune
When I think about heaven then
I think about angels
When I think about angels
I think about you'

snow?

it is the middle of march... and we are getting more snow today than the rest of the winter... whats up with that? isn't spring supposed to be here?... oh well, at least my speech got put off a day, and that is awesome!!!! seriously that makes me happy... i am just taking a break now... i awoke to 2 phone calls, a text message, and my brother coming into my room every five minutes and yelling at me for not being up yet... but thats okay because now that i am up i have gotten a lot accomplished... my brother and i moved everything out of my room (took a little while)... then tore up all the carpeting... scraped all of the old glue and backing off of the floor... vacuumed... scraped... scraped some more.... and tonight we are going to put the new carpet in!! yay... only problem.... i don't have a bedroom, or a bed right now... but thats okay.... whats not okay? i am stranded, and it is making me mad... its the only bad thing about living where i do... i could take the tractor and get unstuck, but then i wouldn't make it back home later if it kept snowing... besides i have to blade the hill for my dad when he gets off of work already... wonder if i would get pulled over for taking the 4-wheeler up town... oh well... maybe i'll walk down the hill and have one of my friends pick me up... then i get to walk back up the hill later... i enjoy that ;) ........ i hope everyone is enjoying their snow day... i'll probably go sledding in the fields or down the hill... :) Have a wonderfully peachirific day!!!

sorry... couldn't resist....

- It is possible to lead a cow upstairs but not downstairs.
- Other than humans, pigs are the only animals that can get sunburn.
- The average North-American will eat 35,000 cookies in during their life span.
- The Earth gets 100 tons heavier every day due to falling space dust.
- The average American makes six trips to the bathroom every day-that's about 2 1/2 years of your life.
- Fifteen people are known to have been crushed to death tilting drinks machines towards them in the hope of a free can of soda.
- On average, 100 people choke to death on ballpoint pens every year.
- More people are killed annually by donkeys than die in air crashes.
- In Denmark, if a horse carriage is trying to pass a car and the horse gets uneasy, the car is required to pull over and stop. If necessary to ease the horse down, you are required to cover the car up.
- In Massachusetts, Taxi drivers are prohibited from making love in the front seat of their taxi during their shifts.
- In Idaho, Riding a merry-go-round on Sundays is considered a crime.
- In Florida, Having sexual relations with a porcupine is illegal. ***good to know ;)
- In Alaska, It is considered an offense to push a live moose out of a moving airplane.
- In Minnesota, It is illegal to sleep naked.
- And finally... most toilets flush in 'E Flat'

;)

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide

yuck...

after i posted that last one cmt decided to play 'some beach' by blake shelton... that song annoys the crap outta me... i have made the executive decision to add it as number 102 in the list of 101 things to do to annoy people... you have to read the post before this to understand what i am talking about ;)-

me again :)

hey ya'll...

i am home sick... i am sure most of you missed me in all of our wonderful classes ;) ... but hey even though i am sick i am in a good mood... maybe its all the great music they have been playing on cmt all morning... or the nice surprise i received last night :) ... but anyway how about some more quotes?...

P.S. The sun is shining... really bright... glaring on the computer screen... but know what? it doesn't bother me, it's refreshing :)

- Most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be.
- If you have only one smile in you, give it to the people you love. Don't be surly at home, then go out in the street and start grinning ''Good morning'' at total strangers.
- Smile and others will smile back. Smile to show how transparent, how candid you are. Smile if you have nothing to say. Most of all, do not hide the fact you have nothing to say nor your total indifference to others. Let this emptiness, this profound indifference shine out spontaneously in your smile.
- Smile, damn it !! Smile. ***Pardon the language used in that quote ;)

Ok... now for some funny quotes... just for the sake of randomness...

- You can't leave footprints in the sands of time if you're sitting on your butt. And who wants to leave buttprints in the sands of time?
- If you work on a lobster boat, sneaking up behind someone and pinching him is probably a joke that gets old real fast.
- Not a shred of evidence exists in favor of the idea that life is serious.
- Tell a man there are 300 Billion stars in the universe and he'll believe you. Tell him a bench has wet paint on it and he'll have to touch to be sure.

0k... have to stop with the funny quotes... they really weren't all that funny... anyway found a list of 101 things you can do to annoy people... cool!!!

1. Sing the Batman theme incessantly.
2. In the memo field of all your checks, write "for sensual massage."
3. Specify that your drive-through order is "to go."
4. Learn Morse code, and have conversations with friends in public consisting entirely of "Beeeep Bip Bip Beeep Bip..."
5. If you have a glass eye, tap on it occasionally with your pen while talking to others.
6. Amuse yourself for endless hours by hooking a camcorder to your TV and then pointing it at the screen. <
7. Speak only in a "robot" voice.
8. Push all the flat Lego pieces together tightly.
9. Start each meal by conspicuously licking all your food, and announce that this is so no one will "swipe your grub".
10. Leave the copy machine set to reduce 200%, extra dark, 17 inch paper, 98 copies.
11. Stomp on little plastic ketchup packets.
12. Sniffle incessantly.
13. Leave your turn signal on for fifty miles.
14. Name your dog "Dog."
15. Insist on keeping your car windshield wipers running in all weather conditions "to keep them tuned up."
16. Reply to everything someone says with "that's what YOU think."
17. Claim that you must always wear a bicycle helmet as part of your "astronaut training."
18. Declare your apartment an independent nation, and sue your neighbors upstairs for "violating your airspace".
19. Forget the punchline to a long joke, but assure the listener it was a "real hoot."
20. Follow a few paces behind someone, spraying everything they touch with Lysol.
21. Practice making fax and modem noises.
22. Highlight irrelevant information in scientific papers and "cc:" them to your boss.
23. Make beeping noises when a large person backs up.
24. Invent nonsense computer jargon in conversations, and see if people play along to avoid the appearance of ignorance.
25. Erect an elaborate network of ropes in your backyard, and tell the neighbors you are a "spider person."
26. Finish all your sentences with the words "in accordance with the prophesy."
27. Wear a special hip holster for your
remote control.
28. Do not add any inflection to the end of your sentences, producing awkward silences with the impression that you'll be saying more any moment.
29. Signal that a conversation is over by clamping your hands over your ears.
30. Disassemble your pen and "accidentally" flip the ink cartridge across the room.
31. Give a play-by-play account of a persons every action in a nasal Howard Cosell voice.
32. Holler random numbers while someone is counting.
33. Adjust the tint on your TV so that all the people are green, and insist to others that you "like it that way."
34. Drum on every available surface.
35. Staple papers in the middle of the page.
36. Ask 1-800 operators for dates.
37. Produce a rental video consisting entirely of dire FBI copyright warnings.
38. Sew anti-theft detector strips
into peoples backpacks.
39. Hide dairy products in inaccessible places.
40. Write the surprise ending to a novel on its first page.
41. Set alarms for random times.
42. Order a side of pork rinds with your filet mignon.
43. Instead of Gallo, serve Night Train next Thanksgiving.
44. Publicly investigate just how slowly you can make a "croaking" noise.
45. Honk and wave to strangers.
46. Dress only in clothes colored Hunters Orange.
47. Change channels five minutes before the end of every show.
48. Tape pieces of "Sweating to the Oldies" over climactic parts of rental movies.
49. Wear your pants backwards.
50. Decline to be seated at a restaurant, and simply eat their complimentary mints by the cash register.
51. Begin all your sentences with "ooh la la!"
52. ONLY TYPE IN UPPERCASE.
53. only type in lowercase.
54. dont use any punctuation either
55. Buy a large quantity of orange traffic cones and reroute whole streets.
56. Pay for your dinner with pennies.
57. Tie jingle bells to all your clothes.
58. Repeat everything someone says, as a question.
59. Write "X - BURIED TREASURE" in random spots on all of someone's roadmaps.
60. Inform everyone you meet of your personal Kennedy assassination/UFO/ O.J Simpson conspiracy theories.
61. Repeat the following conversation a dozen times: "Do you hear that?" "What?" "Never mind, its gone now."
62. Light road flares on a birthday cake.
63. Wander around a restaurant, asking other diners for their parsley.
64. Leave tips in Bolivian currency.
65. Demand that everyone address you as "Conquistador."
66. At the laundromat, use one dryer for each of your socks.
67. When Christmas caroling, sing "Jingle Bells, Batman smells" until physically restrained.
68. Wear a cape that says "Magnificent One."
69. As much as possible, skip rather than walk.
70. Stand over someone's shoulder, mumbling, as they read.
71. Pretend your computer's mouse is a CB radio, and talk to it.
72. Try playing the William Tell Overture by tapping on the bottom of your chin. When nearly done, announce "no, wait, I messed it up," and repeat.
73. Drive half a block.
74. Inform others that they exist only in your imagination.
75. Ask people what gender they are.
76. Lick the filling out of all the Oreos, and place the cookie parts back.
77. Cultivate a Norwegian accent. If Norwegian, affect a Southern drawl.
78. Routinely handcuff yourself to furniture, informing the curious that you don't want to fall off "in case the big one comes".
79. Deliberately hum songs that will remain lodged in co-workers brains, such as "Feliz Navidad", the Archies "Sugar" or the Mr. Rogers theme song.
80. While making presentations, occasionally bob your head. like a parakeet.
81. Lie obviously about trivial things such as the time of day.
82. Leave your Christmas lights up and lit until September.
83. Change your name to "AaJohn Aaaaasmith" for the great glory of being first in the phone book. Claim it's a Hawaiian name, and demand that people pronounce each "a."
84. Sit in your front yard pointing a hair dryer at passing cars to see if they slow down.
85. Chew on pens that you've borrowed.
86. Wear a LOT of cologne.
87. Listen to 33rpm records at 45rpm speed, and claim the faster speed is necessary because of your "superior mental processing."
88. Sing along at the opera.
89. Mow your lawn with scissors.
90. At a golf tournament, chant "swing-batabatabata-suhWING-batter!"
91. Ask the waitress for an extra seat for your "imaginary friend."
92. Go to a poetry recital and ask why each poem doesn't rhyme.
93. Ask your co-workers mysterious questions, and then scribble their answers in a notebook. Mutter something about "psychological profiles."
94. Stare at static on the TV and claim you can see a "magic picture."
95. Select the same song on the jukebox fifty times.
96. Never make eye contact.
97. Never break eye contact.
98. Construct elaborate "crop circles" in your front lawn.
99. Construct your own pretend "tricorder," and "scan" people with it, announcing the results.
100. Make appointments for the 31st of September.
101. Invite lots of people to other people's parties.

*** haha... sorry it got kinda long... but i didn't feel like cutting any of them out :)
** Tata for now

sorry

i know... i haven't posted in awhile.... sorry. my life has been kinda hectic lately, and i am sick now... my fingers are aching as i type... kindof a tingly feeling... but anyway... i should really apologize for a lot more than just not posting... i have hurt a lot of people lately... i don't know why but my attitude and outlook on life has been messed up lately. i used to call myself the eternal optimist and even on a bad day my mood would be peachy... though more often than not i was peachirific.... which is really good. instead lately i've been having my moments of happiness, but overall my outlook has been bleak... i am going to try to change that... i know i'll be better once school is getting out and the weather improves, i hate winter with a passion, but spring is my favorite time of year.... i want to be able to do things with friends other than just laying around.... if this summer is anything like last i will be ecstatic.... i've had many people tell me lately that i have changed... my morals and values haven't changed i'm still the same old curt.... but my emotional state and outlook has been different, i'm not as cheerful as i once was... i sleep through classes... i don't eat... i don't sleep... i haven't been focusing on my school work as much as i used to... and i have been hurting people... once i start feeling better i am going to talk to everyone i've hurt... my brother, my dad, my mom, my girlfriend, some of my friends... they have no idea how much i regret everytime i do or say something that hurts them... its time for me to get out of the rut i find myself in and try to start again... if i could go back there are many things about the past probably three to four months that i would change... i just wish that everyone knew that its not their fault, i don't mean to hurt anyone...

Brighter Tomorrows

Never stop caring about the little things in life,
Never stop dreaming or give in to strife.

Never stop building bridges
that lead to promising tomorrows,
Never stop trying or give in to sorrows.

Never stop smiling
and looking forward to each new day,
But most of all my friend...
Never stop shining in your own special way.

Never forget that all storms can clear,
the grayest sky can turn pure blue.
Remember, brighter tomorrows are near...

Update...

sorry i havent posted in awhile... i know some of you were waiting for some yesterday... but if you read the last five that i have posted it will sum up how i still feel... for the most part. Anyway not much new has happened and i havent found anything that has really spoken to how i feel more than what i had been posting. only new updates would be that school sucks... not really an update ;) ... and that school, homework, work, and not sleeping are going to kill me... i thank everyone who has put that thought into my head recently, that definetely helps my stress levels :) (Just kidding) shalom for now... ill try to get a post in sometime this weekend at the latest

To Make You Feel My Love

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When evening shadows and the stars appear
And there's is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
There's no doubt in my mind where you belong

There ain't nothin' that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love

Drive

* Edited Lyrics to 'Drive' by Incubus

'sometimes, i feel the fear of
uncertainty stinging clear
and i can't help but ask myself
how much i'll let the
fear take the wheel and steer

whatever tomorrow brings
i'll be there with
open arms and open eyes

it's driven me before
and it seems to be the way
that everyone else gets around
but lately i'm beginning to find
that when I drive myself
my light is found

so whatever tomorrow brings,
i'll be there with
open arms and open eyes
yeah.'