conflicted

im hurting again, im confused, im questioning, im conflicted. could it be the reason. is everything a lie. i dont understand. im lost. if its true then everything changes. its a possibility i never thought of. maybe the person is wrong. its only their opinion. they could be wrong. i choose not to believe. but can i trust again. have i ever believed. am i just a pawn. is this a game. am i being used. i need to talk. i need explanations. i need honesty. if its true. its over. if its true. goodbye. thinking too much. why do i listen to other people. why everything.

*everyone: try not to read too deeply into it... i just needed to write