dying inside, fading away

how are you supposed to tell someone you are sorry, that you never meant to hurt them. that you never wanted the pain you felt to harm them, that the pain wasn't caused by them. how do you say that even through the downs the love you felt never wavered, was never second guessed. how do you begin to explain that being a part of their life was the most amazing experience of your life. how do you explain that you didn't want it to end. if only for awhile longer... there are so many things going on, how do you explain you would have been better once school let out, the downs in your life would stop. instead your left feeling empty inside, dead to the world. your left not caring about anything, people have been trying to comfort you, watching you cry... something that hasn't happened in years, but nothing can help take the pain away. the past begins to replay in your mind, and you begin regretting all of the times the stupid little things tore you apart. you wish for a second chance, cause you know this is the person you want to be with. how are you supposed to move on knowing a part of you will die inside, how do you stop yourself from fading away from everything else in the world. how do you explain you need this person in your life, cause without this person it feels there is no life to live. how do you tell people you wish you were dead, because you are no longer alive.