difference

it was nice going to mankato with heidi today, even if i didn't get my laptop right away. we've been hanging out and doing things we never really did before. its like we're together more. we talk more. about lots of different things. after reading her letters i realized that i didn't want her to think that i wanted this relationship for some of the reasons she suspected. i want her to know that i enjoy spending time with her, and we don't always have to be alone. i don't know if that still scares her. i also don't know if she thinks we are moving fast again. i guess i've tried slowing that down again now. i just want her to know that i am serious about our relationship, i want it to be more than just making out. i want to be there for her as a friend, as someone she can talk to. i want her to be someone i can talk to. and i think we are getting there. i realize things still may not be perfect, and i guess i really don't know how she feels, but i know that things are different. somethings have changed. i plan on making sure i don't lose her again, i love her, and i want her to know that i care about her as a person. i respect her, i appreciate her personality, and i enjoy listening to her, watching her do things. i want to be with her. and i want to make sure she knows that.